I awake this morning, less confident than I wish I would be. The feeling of security has nearly abandoned me. I kneel down and give thanks to God. For this day, for the light, for the breath in my lungs. For the chance to witness all He has done. For the opportunity to suffer and grow. I ask Him to bless all those I love. Blessings of health and joy and peace. I ask Him to bless those I don’t that hurt me deep, for He knows them better than I ever will and they deserve his blessings as well. I pray for the strength and will to forgive (I’m still searching and learning and can’t do it alone). I think of you and my soul becomes light, you are peace in this world, you are everything that is right. In you the Kingdom of Heaven shines so bright. You were a battle in my soul, not long ago. I fought against myself, against you and the world. The Lord has comforted me and assured me that you are part of His plan. In that I am sure, anything more is not for me to understand. I thank Him for you being in my life, and for his blessing to love you as He loves me. I know what that means, though I wonder; do you.

This is a letter I will never send, and you may never see. It’s not meant to be poetic; it’s a part of me. It’s truth and love and honesty. It’s all the things I wish we all could be. I can’t tell you ‘I Love You’ all the time, so instead I’ll say this…and know it means the same thing.

Keep smiling, you’re worth it!

Always Yours

ME