I sit here this morning, staring at a blank page and feeling empty.

I am not empty.

When I knelt to pray, I asked for those that have wronged me to be lifted up, those who have used me to be blessed, and those who don’t consider me at all to find peace.

Is praying actually prayer if it isn’t sincere?

In my heart I am hurt and reeling in pain. I deserve more, I’m worth more. I don’t want good things to happen to those that have wronged me, I don’t want blessing on those who have used me, I don’t want those who have passed me by to find peace when I have tried so hard and keep trying. I want God to lay them low; I want them to suffer and find chaos and loss in life.

That would be a sincere prayer. That would be handing it over to the Lord.

I know my heart and so does he. Would I be wrong to pray for these things?

I say pray dear child, whatever is in your heart. Kneel down, bow you head and speak it out loud. With all the love and vengeance, you hold inside you, pray. Do not hold back and be sincere. Let your will be known, let it be carried to Heaven and echo through eternity. YOU are not perfect, be YOU.

YOU are loved and YOU are understood.

His will be done, not yours.

So, pray your will, do not hold onto it. Hand it over and grow.

Keep smiling, you’re worth it.

Always Yours

me