Good morning. It’s funny and tragic how everything seems like it may be going so well, life is rollin’ along smoothly and then something happens. It could be something externally with a friend or family member, it could be something with your job or a hobby, maybe something internal, a bout of depression or just a really slow day or plans gone sideways. no matter the reason life gets a bit bumpier.

That was my yesterday. I’ve managed to let Him down, you down, myself down…again. I woke up this morning and find myself somewhat disappointed in me. I get that this is the cycle, I’m observant enough to realize it is all my own doing. We all break our own boundaries from time to time, cast aside our goals to live in the moment.

I think there are probably levels to it, degrees upon which the guilt and disappointment should be gaged, I may be wrong, this is just my point of view. This weekend so far, I broke several of my own personal boundaries. I would consider them, somewhat minor fractures because the only person really effected was me. I broke at least four boundaries I set for myself, and one goal or personal command. The only reason that I consider them minor is because the only person really effected in a negative manor was me. If this would have affected others, I would consider them much more major fractures.

I sit here this morning listening to the groaning from across the hall, a groaning that has become only too regular in these early mornings. I am ready and equipped to forgive myself, there is no point in holding onto yesterday’s failures and I know the chances are good that today I’m going to let myself down again…for a chance to disconnect from the moment and escape if just for a short time. I am weak, and although I can do better, for now that will just have to be okay. I am still loved, and I am still worth it.

We all will stumble; we all will fall. I have faith in us to rise and to move forward. So, I’ll walk through today and hope tomorrow, the person in the mirror looks a little more familiar and a little less disappointed. I’ll give thanks that my transgressions didn’t extend outside myself, that no unsuspecting second or third party could be hurt or violated as so often is prone to happen when we allow our selfish desires to take the control. I know I myself have played the role of the unsuspecting third party more than once, and that hurts even more because of the trust that gets broken there.

For today though, I’m going to be in today and my greatest hope is that you will be in today as well and know that you are well loved.

Keep smiling, you’re worth it!

Always Yours

me